Wednesday, March 17

grace filled

...a journal of our journey to adoption,
i should include a brief summary of how we chose adoption or why we chose adoption;

although in reality adoption has chosen us.

theoretically we tried for bio but we were was not intent on having a biological child. what i mean by this is it just did not matter to us. in fact, if i recall correctly it hit me one day about 10 years ago that international adoptin would be in the future. and, my husband- he is right there with me on this one. he feels the need as well.

we just knew one day, when that 'aha' moment sprang.

over the past year we tried the bio route, knowing if we had bio we would also adopt. i had two miscarriages. we had NO desire to dip our feet into the 'fertility world'.

there were alot of other options such as actual injectible cycles (hormone treatments for three weeks) with dr. assisted iui, invasive testing, etc. then of course the big ole ivf. but none of that remotely interested us. and it did not feel right.

we knew there was something else we were supposed to do. we knew it was adoption. when we realized this, we knew. this in itself showed us where our heart really was.

it was the bigger picture. the yearn we have to help a child who is in actual need. to mother a child who needs a mother.

what is amazing is that i seriously can sit down recalling the phases of my life, my own personal journey, where i am today and situations presenting themselves and it is all so clear. it plays out like a puzzle. how my husband and i were led to this point. the plan was there all along from God; above

and what a beautiful grace filled plan .

my husband and i see it clearly; how all avenues have led us together to adoption. a wonderful peaceful feeling to have the peace and faith in your heart that comes from a confidence and knowing.

God is good; that goes without saying.

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